The vocation and call of pastor reclaims one as a provocateur of love.
A profound love that surrenders, that endures through edgy times and situations.
A call to ministry is living a fresh life amongst staleness.
It is the call to ministry that ushers one into a luminous darkness.
It is this revolutionary, radical space called pastor that brokenness reinvents itself as power.
This vulnerable space is an impetus for community.
It is the call that reshapes the narrative only to be reshaped again – perpetual transformation.
The call of God ignites the flame that burns away the dross of self-reliance.
This call is who I am not what I do…
I am Pastor.
Pastoring is a revolutionary act of service that has the potential to send one to the ultimate edge of sacrifice. The space known as the pastor where relinquishment of self is priority. (when done for proper motive) The pastor’s entire existence is based upon re-presenting the totality of someone else. The weekly wrestle with the conformity of being like someone else takes precedent in their lives. The blessing of a burden gives them the motivation to go through another day.
The pastor has to be reserved enough for levels of privacy but candid enough for implied empathy. It is the constant juxtaposition that leads pastors to prayer. Prayer that removes the exteriors of selfishness and leads them to hardcore vulnerability. It is the very space of vulnerability where the negotiation of heart and head battle out their differences. The place where many pastors make every effort to resist without realizing it is the place they will inevitably encounter.